I am not me anymore

I have spent 1 year plus already study at K.L….and for this 1 year i can feel that im no longer the same Adrian as you all know.  I think i changed the most is during this semester because of the surroundings…well i mean the house atmosphere.  Because, i just moved in to this new apartment and so everything has changed.  Firstly, I’m not used with everyone here, especially Kelly’s roomate, Ruiyi, that just joined us this semester.  Her loud voice and crazy screams make me hard to adjust myself to this new environment.  I tried to tell Kelly but she said that she’s like that already…But then, why that Ruiyi cannot be more considerate? Why she can’t she be more tolerate since everyone is staying in the same house and sharing almost everything here.  Her screams n loud voice really ANNOYED me so so so much coz it’s very very IRRITATING.  Evertime she lets go a loud screams or laugh, the purpose is like trying to get everyone’s attention…Why can’t she do it in much appropriate way rather than shouting or laugh like some crazy person…What i see in myself right now is just a quiet guy that cannot communicate well to others.  I’m not the same old Adrian that always can laugh and talk craps anymore.  I miss being my old self like when I’m in Kuching.  I rather spend more time with my coursemates than coming back home here to face my other housemates, especially Ruiyi.  Everytime when I’m at home here, I feel myself like a stranger coz all of my housemates don’t talk much to me.  I can’t mix well with them mainly because they speak mandarin and i don’t.  But at least some of them can give me a smile sometimes which make me feel better.
And, in another case, when I’m with my coursemates, one of them always insult me of being fat.  I don’t understand why people like to make fun of others in such a way.  Is it wrong for being fat or ugly or stupid? Is it against the law or rule?  Even one of my friend always got insulted by my other coursemate, Calvin.  Actually she’s not fat at all but rather attractive and very friendly.  I just can’t seem to understand why some people have to play with others by making fun of them.  It really hurt someone’s feeling so much…we are all in college already…Hello???  No more in kindergarten or in primary school…GROW UP!!!
I just can’t wait to finish off my Diploma then I would continue my Degree somewhere else as Kelly also planned to move out from this apartment next year.  I do not wish to continue my studies in TARC coz i found out that I’m not good at Chemistry.  I’m having a hard time trying to study Chemistry.  Now, I think that Biology is much more easier than Chemistry coz it does not need much to memorize compared to Chemistry.

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